You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
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Together in all these memories,
I see your smile.
All of the memories I hold dear.
Darling you know I'll love you,
Til the end of time.
All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears.
All of my memories...
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There was a time the fire was burning bright,
And everything was shining in the light,
But when desire has gone, it's hard to carry on,
Going through the motions, when there's nothing there;
You have got my heart, and all I want from you,
Is just a kiss before we say goodbye;
And let me keep my memories of all the times we were amazing,
And I will keep in memories the best that love can be;
There was a time we had so much to say,
Together at the ending of the day,
But when the only words are all the ones that hurt,
Try to remember the way we were;
Take the past and hold it like a photograph,
'Cos it's the only way to say goodbye;
And we will keep these memories of all the times we were amazing,
And we will keep in memories the best that love can be,
The best that love can be;
We were amazing.
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الان در چنین روزی در سالگرد ١اشتباه دلم برای خود پارسالم که با ١کاکروی کارتونی تخیلی و یا حتی ١گربه شاد بود و حال میکرد و هیچ کمبود و نیازی نداشت تنگ شده!!!الان ١خلاء ناشناخته ای حس میکنم که نمیدونم باید با کاه پرش کنم یا آرد نخودچی!!!!الان...١چیزی کمه!!!اونهمه الکی خوش بودن اونهمه رضایت!!همه رو با دستای خودم چال کردم!!!!و دیگه جدا نمیدونم چیکار کنم!!!!اصلا نمیدونم میشه کاری کرد یا نه!!!!الان بعد از ١سال میگم کاش پگاه ١سال قبل بودم!!!اون پگاه همه چی داشت!!!دنیا رو داشت!!!این پگاه...انگار که هیچی نداره!!!!من...اشتباه کردم!!!می پذیرم!!!!
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